Squish!

Ok.. Last night, in an attempt to climb out of this steel ball I have constructed around my heart, I went to "Lisdoonvarna" at the Harp and Fiddle last evening.. I had an earlier "society" gig that I had from 6 to 7, so I arrived in full gig clothing.. (Tux, overcoat, tie..) I have realized that I haven't really broken out of my shyness. I guess it's part of what happened in my youth. I've never been able to make friends easily, and it was easily apparent last night. I took comfort in what I always do, I hide behind something that I know I can do, or stay in the darker corner of a party. This time, the Karaoke microphone served as my Security blanket. (Yes, I was acting like Linus, but this time, Snoopy wasn't there to rip it from my clutches!) I took comfort in knowing that I can be the quiet, brooding musician that I am. My "set" included..

Color My World Chicago
You've Made Me So Very Happy Blood, Sweat, & Tears
Danny Boy (C'mon, I was in an Irish Bar, after all..)
Time Warp Rocky Horror Picture Show
Since I Don't Have You Jimmy Beaumont and the Skyliners
Can't Keep My Eyes Off of You Frankie Valli

Of them all.. The Frankie Valli tune was a crowd favorite.. (They had NO Donnie Iris, BTW!) The disturbing things that got me were.. 1.) I am now aware that I am awkwardly, and painfully shy again.. 2.) The only people that liked my choices of songs are 50+ years old.. I don't know how to take that. I'd rather be with people of my own age, but my tastes in music, arts and in other ventures are, how shall I say it, older than I am..